Actually I have thoughts tonight. Because while I was coming home on the bus earlier I begun to listen to a song I havn't listened to in a while ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q7Em4fUOrZo ) and I calmed by it. I reminisced what the song meant to me. now usually when I think back on my life. I see the pain i caused. the embarrassment and the pain I suffered. and the anger. Everyone was just so angry. But this time...
I didn't remember that. I remembered things that I felt were meaningless soon after. and well. They never were. You see, I had something then, that I will honestly hold on to for a long time.
I had my guide.
1) I would let no one else hurt my friends. And i seriously would shout at people if they came close to hurting them.
2) In my own way. I always protected my friends. I would offer my advice and I would intently listen. I always thought I was doing the right thing until the moments where I did wrong and. well. we can guess where that went.
and 3) I simply did not give up. EVER. Constantly battling, and I never stopped any pursuit.
So, if that seems familiar. it's because 10 months ago. i begun to blog. and I labelled what i felt were my morales and they were something to stick to.
Well. Turns out. I always felt that way. I constantly break these morales. but I always believed in them.
Which is why faith is such a wonderful thing. I feel that these 3 ideas, even though 1 and 2 are 1 and the same, are my "religion" of sort. There are other things I believe. But I have seen people be so resolute in their belief, it's a wonder why there are people who don't believe in even themselves.
I may only be 17. but i have lead a good life.
Vlog is on the way.
Later ramblers.
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