wardrobe.

SO what Am I gonna say. We are no longer together. Fine that  bit is over and done with.
I mean what can I say, I have no one to blame but myself for this, which is annoying because that makes it worse. Fine, said it.

I hate being at home. I have to interact with idiots and my family there. I hate visiting family. They expect the most odd things out of me without saying anything. I hate being in my university box. Its lonely, there is no one in my house that cares enough to take a break. But that's not their fault. And it leaves me time to think. I hate that as well.

So this week I am beginning operation "seek help". I am fed up of feeling nothing again and again, and I want this noise to go. Simple.

Different thought, why is it, when I introduce typing, making my thoughts come out got so much easier than speaking them aloud. Well If it wasn't half an hour before I lecture I would probably write an essay exploring this. And I will say this is something that has actually been going since I started making this. The phrase "It's the best insight into his mind we got" or words to that effect. And the funny thing is. It is correct, maybe because I am writing things it is easier to let the things out that I want the world to know. Or maybe, it is the whole faceless thing. But I see it like awkwardness, I never get awkward around a computer screen, yet if I see I am trying to explain something to someone, I can see them thinking, and whether or not it's troublesome or interesting or whatever, I will think that what ever I am saying is pointless, and has no baring on life and simply is a waste of everyone's time just like this blog.
I can't help the way I think. I want to stop thinking like it, because not talking to people is ruining my relationships with everyone.

So now it's operation "seek help". I want to stop being me.